That's how I feel after trying and trying to combat something in my life that I know I need to fix, adjust, or work on.
Maybe it's
...frustation
...procrastination
...lust/envy/coveting
...not resting enough (externally and internally)
...selfish
........etc, etc, etc
We live in a "self-improve" me culture. Always "getting better" is the purpose to almost every action.
Better at making money.
Better at spending it wisely.
Better at time management.
Better at applying some random Dave Ramsey principle.
Better at working out.
Better at eating right.
But the better breaks you too. Not because get better is intrinsically evil or bad, but rather the "why" and the "how" we get "better". We fix so much in our lives and get no where. Controlling your finances or your work ethics won't make your life better. Go ask a teenager in Plano, Tx if it's true.
It's not that improvement is bad for you, but it's when you are doing to fixing, pride (which is "lesser" sin in our minds) runs the show. When it does, you still feel that "well crap" feeling in you.
Go ahead and improve all you want, but if you do it, it won't last. If you do it, if will only create a new area to work on and you'll really have improved a "0" sum amount. If you do it, you will be the object of worship.
Who do you think has a harder time going to God, those that can't fix anything or those that seem to improve everything they've ever touched?
Humbled after trying to improve too many aspects of my life.
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